Where I AM at

As I am here, just pondering around trying to figure out this whole online posting/blog thing, I just wondered, what I am trying to get out of this. Do I want to let people in on my most precious creative thoughts? As I reached for my first poem to post, I stop and hesitate, am I really ready for this, to unleash what has been hidden in me all these years, my thoughts that only a select few have insight, and yet an ever smaller few know what I am really about, I freeze, as I feel I am ready, ready to be heard, and in a way it scares me, to know that anyone can at any time see deep in my mind, and maybe find what I have been hiding there for years, the unknown to me, what I have been hiding beneath my written words, the good, the bad, the ugly some may say. I am ready I tell myself, still nervous to learn how to do this online thing. I just need to take a step back and gather my thoughts correctly so that people will know me for who I am and not judge me for what they assume is only empty words that are read in this online thing. Take the time if you will, to get to know me, if you are one of the few that truly do, you will find what has been hidden all these years beneath the written words, you will find me.